Feelings towards...

It would make a great deal of sense if the world was a simple place - with simple rules and regulations to guide us through life...

Alas - life is not simple...
Therein lies the folly - my folly and the rest of the human race. I start to wonder on the justification of feelings - mine for the most part, continue to confound me on every level. I am the recipient of emotions that continue to shatter my cool poise and relative calm.

In the bracing wind of indifference the one thing that shakes my cool and humor mongering approach to life is women... On one level, I seem distant but with me great battles are fought to control my thoughts, desires - carnal and molten.

I watch them strutting about - all professional, all poise and in some cases glamour...
there are those that obviously merit - a first look, some merit a second and a few others merit - a third, fourth and eternal stare but that is expected...

I love their complexity - it is at once their blessing and curse.
The battle of understanding between the sexes remains one of those ever elusive holy grails of humanity - it continues to dodge us to this day...

However, i continue to be stunned at the way I react to them inspite of my mixed feelings - likely indication, I am more confused than them...

I dislike their affectations and attitudes, especially when at the end of the day they will eventually surrender control - some are really very nice others are bitchy and spiteful...

Their emotions are utterly complex and behaviors continue to astound my logical comprehension.

But some years down the line - you get married and settle down and both of you try to make adjustments around each other....

They remind me of dress up dolls - after peeling away the layers - what is left is actually bereft of complexity (still this doesn't over simplify them)...

If I told my girlfriend to wear something sexy - it immediately becomes a potential issue of contention - why should she wear it... Don't I like her choice of clothes? Is she a doll? etc...

Complexity - that's life